Need You Now

It’s near eleven in the evening and I’m still wide awake. Even I lay down to bed; I know sleep won’t come to me yet. The lights are off except from the room of my brother where a 10 months old baby girl and a little boy are sleeping and after a while I’ll be joining them in the room.

There’s a song I often heard from the television and keep playing in my head. I only knew the chorus part and I plan to learn how to play it with my guitar when the speaker is repaired. I need to hear the whole part of the song. I search for the lyrics and *sigh*

This song is entitled Need You Now by Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

Wherever I go, wherever I eat, visit, walk it reminds me of him. A picture of us walking in the same direction I walked or eating in the near table where we used to flashes in my mind. How I wanted to text him and call him, I wanted to say “hey, guess where I am? I remember us together here.. uhm.. Can we see each other just even for an hour?”..

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

I know he’s always busy, business and problems occupied his tired mind. I wonder if I ever cross his mind even just when he takes his meal, thinking “this is sol’s favorite food” or remembering the times when I always told him “don’t each much” or “stop drinking softdrinks, drink more water”.  *sigh*

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Oh how I always felt alone. I miss you so much but neither can I text nor call you.

Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

I got drunk many times but nothing change.  Coz I was waiting for his text and call saying “sol, get ready I’m gonna pick you up”, like he did before.  

*sigh*