Time

It’s when you care for someone and want some time with him.

I wanted your time though I said I wouldn’t.

Coz I know the world’s pressing against you every minute.

For them you’re holding a gold mine.

Who am I to beseech your precious time?

Lots of responsibilities was placed on your shoulders

You’re a man so you took it all without reservations

When you’re weary, pressured and heavy laden

Why wouldn’t you let me help appease your burden?

I just don’t need and want you simply here

I understand but I care so much so I want you near

We just can’t simply wait our time and lock our doors.

Time is free why we can't have ours?

You can find my poem at Authspot.com

The Power of Music

Sometimes it is my safe haven. It soothes my heart from being hurt and accompanied me from being alone. I felt safe just in listening and alleviate from every words that gave true meanings. It reaches the height and depths of heart.  It’s my medicine from being weak and my way from being lost. As William Green said “Music is moonlight in the gloomy night of life”.

Music is my language and acquaint with what and how I truly feel especially when words don’t come easy. It’s my unsaid words and unexpressed feelings. It gives me pain but it never lied and helps me find the truths. “Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent” by Victor Hugo.

I concur what Ludwig van Beethoven had said that "Music is the mediator between the spiritual and the sensual life". Music heals my soul. It sometimes wipes away worries and doubts in me. It lifts me up, inspire me and help me understand and see life clearly.

Here is a beautiful song, sang by various artists who also believe that music heals our soul.

You can find my article at Musicouch.com

Nature Lover's Getaway (Beaches)

Most of us Filipinos are nature lovers. We are born to value nature like our lives. We acquire good qualities and personalities on how to preserve the beauty of nature. That is why Philippines is one of the blessed country when it comes to natural resources. Our country has lots of natural resources to be proud of and there are some not yet discovered.

Before I sail to the other far islands here in the Philippines and discover more of the nature’s beauty of our country, I want to recall and share the wonderful places I had been. I was born nature lover and even though I am a computer scientist I still neither believe that technology can change nor leveled what God has made.

Marabut Beach, Marabut, Eastern Samar 

Picture via Beaches and Resort

Marabut Beach is one of the places we visited in our Science Club Field Trip when I was in high school.  The sand is white and the water is clear. Their cottages are made of indigenous materials. From the seashore you’ll see the breathtaking view of the towering rock cliffs and the unique seascape of the bay.

 Sapao Beach, Guiuan, Eastern Samar

 Picture via Wikimapia

After Marabut Beach, we went to Sapao beach and there we took our lunch time. We spent more hours to enjoy the place.  It’s a long stretch of white sand with small islands and the water was either below or above your knee. It will take a long walk before you reached the deep part of the sea. The beach offers a nice and commanding view of the Pacific Ocean.

Digyo Island, Inocapan, Leyte

Picture via For Love of the Sea

This is best place I had been. After our successful recital at STI Ormoc, my best friend’s sister took us in this wonderful small island. Digyo is just one of the four islands popularly known as Quatro Islas. It was my first time to swim in the deep part of the sea only with life jacket on since I don’t know how to swim. The water was so clear and the sand is white. So we had access to see the beauty underneath from above without using sea goggles.  Before we went back to the boat we rented and went home, we walked around the island and for the last time we savor its beauty. The timing of going home was perfect because we come across dolphins. I can't help to smile with the memory of it. They said we are so lucky because not all vacationers have the opportunity to encounter them.

You can find my article at Trifter.com

Need You Now

It’s near eleven in the evening and I’m still wide awake. Even I lay down to bed; I know sleep won’t come to me yet. The lights are off except from the room of my brother where a 10 months old baby girl and a little boy are sleeping and after a while I’ll be joining them in the room.

There’s a song I often heard from the television and keep playing in my head. I only knew the chorus part and I plan to learn how to play it with my guitar when the speaker is repaired. I need to hear the whole part of the song. I search for the lyrics and *sigh*

This song is entitled Need You Now by Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

Wherever I go, wherever I eat, visit, walk it reminds me of him. A picture of us walking in the same direction I walked or eating in the near table where we used to flashes in my mind. How I wanted to text him and call him, I wanted to say “hey, guess where I am? I remember us together here.. uhm.. Can we see each other just even for an hour?”..

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

I know he’s always busy, business and problems occupied his tired mind. I wonder if I ever cross his mind even just when he takes his meal, thinking “this is sol’s favorite food” or remembering the times when I always told him “don’t each much” or “stop drinking softdrinks, drink more water”.  *sigh*

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Oh how I always felt alone. I miss you so much but neither can I text nor call you.

Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

I got drunk many times but nothing change.  Coz I was waiting for his text and call saying “sol, get ready I’m gonna pick you up”, like he did before.  

*sigh*

Offstage

STI Performing Arts (Tacloban)

We can’t go on with our lives without looking back to those best memories and remembering people who helped made things possible for you.

I was just a simple student way back then and just living my life naturally. I made friends with people who were just like me, talk to people who talked to me, smile to those who smiled and looked my way and to those who liked me. I don’t like in pretending we’re friends, talk as if we’re close and smile as if we like each other. But doesn’t mean I don’t like someone it’s just that we don’t need to smile if not necessary and if we don’t feel it. I don’t act opposite of my feelings and of what I really am. I’m a Jag Jeans lover and never wear skirt as possible.

Everything changes when I joined the choir group in Performing Arts. My passion in music leads me there but I don’t have passion in acting and that made it hard for me. Aside from singing for masses in our school, we joined choral contest, we perform in gatherings, occasions and even big events. We made mini concerts and perform musicals.

Being a choir and stage performer you must possesses the professionalism in singing, acting and must have a stage presence. You have to communicate with audience while singing and you must feel and make the audience feel the song. And that includes smiling. I was just a first timer and I got nervous and made mistakes sometimes. Since I am one of altos, we don’t sing the melody of a song more often, that’s the job of sopranos. We have different tune and when singing with melody sometimes made me lost. I end up singing the melody especially when I know the song. So every time we practice and perform I focus on my tune and forget to smile. No problem with sad songs of course because there’s nothing to smile. Since I’m the tallest of the girls, I was easily recognize and observed so I always called and got scolded. When I heard our choir master said “Come on guys, smile, more.. more..” even if he’s not looking at me or even if it’s not just for me, I felt it was for me.  And I’m guilty.

Performing the musical “Ms Saigon” was the hardest part in my life of performing arts. Miss Saigon is one of the best Broadway Musical starred by our Filipino pride, Miss Lea Salonga.  We only get few part of the story and it all happened in a nightclub. So our role was ladies of pleasure. At first I can’t even imagine myself on that role. I had hard times in our practice because we had to project as a real fancy women and I had problems regarding the custom because I don’t even wear skirt how much more wearing shorter than that.

Because of their help, I learn how to cope easily in necessary changes. Because of their trust in me I learn to trust myself more and gain more confidence that I’m not aware that I am capable of. I learn how to smile in front of so many people, known and unknown. Miss Saigon was the hardest yet my challenging performance ever.

When I thought of those times, I can’t help but smile and even laugh. Those struggles and trying hard times are my best times actually. I made mistakes and got rebuke, hurt in some practices and even cried before our performance. But that’s all part of it, steps in going out of my shell.  I found out that I have lots to offer and lots of things I can do beyond my expectations.  And that’s all I owe to the people behind it.

You can find my article at Musicouch